A Modern Sinners Prayer
GOD
Baba Nkulunkulu
Would you please do me a favour
Forgive my inquisitive nature.
It influence my heart to ask some questions
that threaten my place up above the clouds.
God
Baba Nkulunkulu
From what I know so far,
not everything can be seen with a naked eye
so I don’t ask for proof for me to believe.
So much is hidden from our forever wondering eye searching for faults in the worlds creation. I understand the influence of my home of birth , the beliefs of my people and the shade of my skin to my being. That being said , I understand those born worlds away from me, that them too have beliefs, customs. They chant and sing and shout in fear, gratitude and Uncertainty. When we meet eye to eye, we embrace a fight as long as time of wrongs and rights.
I know I should not ever ask, but I’m curious . What intent does that serve for your children to be divided by some ridiculous worlds standards on race, geography, politics and all?
It seems life is a big riddle everyone is trying to solve.
At times I believe it’s possible for it to be as simple as deciphering the colour black and white. Despite both their innocence being tampered with.
I don’t want to be cast out among your children, I don’t want to live in fear of being a rebel , I want to live as wild and pure . I want to love as rough, serene , flawed and not. How do I do that with these standards imposed on us as natures rules. I try to find comfort in telling myself it’s my life so I should live it the way I intend. How does it feel so wrong to embrace those of your children on the wrong side of the scripture.
“Forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing”
The worlds that haunt me everytime I sin because my eyes are wide open, my heart yearn for the immoralities.
I hope to pray to you again and ask for you to forgive me when I am done playing dirty. From the words in the bible, you forgive despite the magnitude of the deeds. I fear so much to say precisely the weight I carry on my bones. But you know me. I know that, so what difference does it make for me to speak exactly my thoughts.
I pray you keep me long enough for me to attain the wisdom I need to save myself from the promised hell I seem to be heading to.
Amen